im all yours

Hmmmm Will she understand that im all hers...
but i guess not.... Cuz people all around thinking im not the guy.... Talking stories of me, bad about me, trash about me, ass about me, mess around me, even sometimes the pimple that's on me; A player i can be, and how ass i will be. somehow I've virtually became the guy they all thought off... without even realizing it... but they don't know me. They never do.... Cuz i never tell them the story, and they will never know me :)

Can people judge me behind my back? yes they can, cuz there is no rules to rumors and back stabbings. But shall i take it. Shall i be the one that they talk of me.. or make a living out of proving them wrong. No, i just want to be me... :)

I shouldn't be sad for all these. I should be happy because im famous. Thinking positive makes my lifespan longer.... ;)
And i dont want to explain myself to them, cuz i know ppl only want to hear what they want to. And they will not accept what they dont believe is true. I think its quite true of the saying..... so i just live with it, knowing that now my heart is breaking... but i keep taking whatever is on me.... keeping all to myself..... Crying inside but fake a smile on the outside whenever ppl sees me. Cuz i know im surrounded by actor and actresses... Everyone with a mask covering their true faces...

But i dont want to mask it in front of you. I want to smile whenever i want to, not because i have to..
I want to cry in front of you..
i want to be sad in front of you....
I want to be angry in front of you..
and i want to be happy when I'm with u..
I want u to love the true me for who i am and not what others say of me...
i don't want to know them, but all i want is You. I want the true you... i want u without your mask.. i want to love you for who u really are.
You'll always be a part of me, and u will always be my Baby~ ;)

Random...

This is definitely not a good time to blog, but... Just wanna say that...

I Love u too much~


Okay, back to my text books.. :)
U really distract me sometimes... Not a good time my friend ;)
But me Like.. :P

To You~

Well,
i may not be good at words, sometimes.. Not gifted with with the charming face. Maybe not that romantic like those in the movies... Or maybe blessed with everything in this world to share it with you.
But all i have is this love, this one love. And if anyone would to deserve this piece of love, it would be you.

We may not know each other. but i would take this time, and this opportunity i have, to slowly grow into you. I felt something special in you at first sight, and i wanna give it a try. To explore this magical world of yours.. Maybe i'm being dumb enough to not knowing the consequences of my actions now, but i treasure every moments that we have together.. Although i'm not sure if there's an ending to it. But i hope to see your smile every single day.
Hoping that your smile will not fade away in my heart~

You will always be on my mind.. i love you from the start, and that is more than words can say.

sweetie, smile. :]

how to tell that She is into You?

First of all, I'm seeking for advise in this post, not giving solutions.

So there was i, being kinda random at this moment... but since i have no place to share this, might as well put it in my blog and hopefully Jesus will read my post. Always being the tough ones, i, sometimes have to bow down and seek for answers... so The question is how do you know that She is into You?

So it was Saturday night, i called her to fix us a date... Or maybe not that straightforward. I told her she could call some friends if she want to. But in the end, it was just the 2 of us being present..

We had a splendid moment before that, or maybe its just me... Although its been the first time I've ever went out with that girl, solo before.. It is quite an awkward, but kinda romantic, humor and cute moment, at one point... We watched a movie at a shopping mall and i remember the movie was 12 midnight. We couldn't get the chance to watch some horror movie (u know what i mean, guys love to show their manly hood by proving that they have no fears and they could lend their shoulders to the girl to hide behind when the scary part comes in.) Anyway plan ruined.... all tickets were fully booked.. and i personally don't like horror stuffs, so i think i kinda suck at bringing girls for movie on a date.

It doesn't consider a date if you ask me... but it really seems like one.... Cuz we were alone at that moment... just the 2 of us. But we never really hold hands or hug... I don't think i have the guts to do so. Usually guys takes the initiative to take the first move. Guess i just need more time to sort out my feelings for her or from her... maybe its all just a misunderstanding and shes being nice...

So there were we, after the movie.. we went for supper.. Cuz i was told that she hadn't had dinner before she came.. Well, this is a good opportunity for me to actually get to spend more time with her than just fetching her back and say "bye". So yeah, i took her to a Mamak place and we had supper... Well, im the one having, she was never really hungry. Or maybe the Shisha is more interesting than foods to her.. So we went there and meet up with her friends, settle down and yeah.. chill out... ;)

Nothing special going on it seems, just few of us.. chilling out, till 3 in the morning and then its time for us to take a leave. Something funny happened back there when we were leaving... I mean us, not inclusive of her friends. Somehow deep down inside, i got have this feeling that, although I've never been with her or know her for long.. But its just that, i trust her... So... yeah something happened.... and it was damn hilarious. She was ok with it, just sucked a little at first.


Yeah, so it was bout 3 something when we reached her house...
Park outside of one of her neighbors' house.. and we dared each other to stay in the car and chit chat till morning. So we chat and chat, somehow i can sense that shes getting tired, and im getting tired, mentally.. Physically active and awake... I tried to tell her how i feel about her, but i don't think it works this way on her. Maybe I'm being too emotional as i seldom does in front of other girls. And so, constantly I've been trying to change the subject when time turns awkward for the both of us. She is actually quite dumb to fall for that. Or i must say I'm the smart one. ;)

Well, verbally, i failed. So at some point i wanna show my feelings through expressions and physical. But i think this is the dumbest thing i have ever done. So the whole time I've been trying and trying... maybe not all the time, we shared some stories too at that time. And all these happened in my car, can u imagine that? = =

I've never done that in my hole entire life b4.. I mean, yeah I've tried not sleeping, but right after what i was doing.. i literally fainted like a dead corps. But after going through the moment, i actually was not tired at all. And amazingly i felt great and energetic after that.

So in the end. But it haven't reach the Ends end yet.. There is still a turning point there, just that i haven't reach that point yet. Or maybe i had passed the point and is really heading for the End.... But deep down in my mind, i know i've tried my best. and now, I think I'm planning to give up on her.. its not worth putting efforts on when i think back all the words that she said. Maybe things are not what it seems. Maybe she hinted me on something, but I'm just not thinking hard enough.... Its just like a virtual battlefield. Pushing your mind powers to the edge of a cliff; im trying my best. but somehow it seems i sucked at being that Me that night. Trying to win this war is not easy, and backing down is one of my options.


Jesus, help me please?

2 main factors in life that one should HAVE

People, i know its kinda sudden to hop back into this blog, but i suddenly has this inspiration in me to share this wonderful discovery in life.... which, probably most of u had already known of. (Be optimist!!!!)
No, non of u out there know about it!! yeah thats right...!!! So listen up... and give yourself 5.30 minutes for this.

People... the Great 2 words..... "Dream" and "Believe..." okay, maybe i shouldn't mention the 2 at the beginning of my post. That way, at least i can still retain half of my readers out there to actually continue reading the remaining half of this post. :(


Too bad, once written consider sold ;) So people....
Have you ever........
no thats not how the way i want to start my long speech like the millions of people out there... well, i'll start off with me, myself as a subject. I am a big dreamer. Dreamer who dreams big, and also sometimes a Day dreamer... Which, satisfied my first factor of the "to have" in life.

People always say dream and u will achieve... well, people... bull shit... i dream of everything in life.... but what if im a coward to actually do those things.... so theory proven wrong.. back to mine :)

To dream is important, it gives u a way.. a path to walk on... a direction.... so that u now where u are actually heading when doing something. With this dream, u can actually do many things. Imagine you, without a dream... will you on your computer everyday search for blogs to read, facebook and see whether any new friends out there.. or google some things that u want to know... or to read a news regarding something that had happened? All these starts off with a dream, it may be a small dream. But without it, will all of these actually happened?
u will probably just be thinking that all the blogs in the world wont interest you, or if there is, u will have already read before. The rest are bull shits and annoying talks about people talking bout their lives.... Or in facebook, the same old friends are always there. no one would actually realize me out there. So why bother to open it? its just like every usual day where u sign in, see the news feed, "nothing new...", then alt + f4.... Okay, dont want to stress too much on this. The fact is, when u actually dream, even if its a tinny tiny dream, u would actually take the initiative to start something in life.... cuz u believe that something is out there that is waiting for u to accomplish.....! like the facebook thing, u believe that something is out there... so u would log on, browse this browse that, and walla~~~ a pretty picture in one of your friends friendlist just waiting for you to add!!! HaHa... Thats me, don't know bout you guys... ;)

So with a Dream, everything starts... Easy rite??!! Just like a snap of a finger! :) and whats NEXT? "Believe.." Believe is how u keep things going with how u dream off it... How many of you out there would actually believe? maybe some, maybe not.. I shall give a real life example of me in my daily lives.... one day i was playing basketball with my friends out there..... So there was "Dickhead", he passed me this ball and, in the split of a second, i have 2 choices... pass it out or take the shot... Now, how many of you out there would actually take the shot? (Honestly, not as in jsut take it without thinking of the consequences) well.. certiris paribus.... (which means taking all other factor into constant in Economics terms) the person marking you is nowhere near you, and by right u should take the shot at that time.... well, i take the shot, jsut because i have to... and not because i want to... And with the thought of letting Faith or Jesus show me my future... :) cuz deep down i know i cant make the shot, i was never a shooter.. just a lucky guy who sometimes manage to 'luck' my balls in.... So, pomm!!! the ball did not enter. Well, thats the whole story. If i would have believed in me, took the shot like i usually did when i was practicing... with the use every single fiber in my muscles to shoot that bloody ball.. and of a 101% of my concentrations, and taking out everything that i was thinking at that moment, and focusing on the strength and directions... wind: altitude 85 degrees to east e.g.... and the hair flipped to the right side, clearing the sweat that is hanging on the end of my hair..... (actually looks kinda cool in slow-mo. U know, like those in the movies) giving me just the right vision to take the shoot.... and with that One breath.... the ball Might have entered.... or I would fail without hesitations :)

Well, do correct me but.. all of those bullshits i said before i make the shot. All of it, will it happen if i wouldn't have believed in myself? if i wouldn't believe in myself, like what i did, i would just shoot a random ball and hoping it would go through the net...


So people... try to visualize and analyze what these 2 word actually means and then try to apply them into your daily lives... even if it is offing the monitor just for 5 seconds and open the dusty window to have some fresh air... or take a jog out in the park (even if u have never done it before.. just believe that u can and dream that what u are doing outside is actually perfectly normal and fine) Dont sue me if something unexpected happened. u nvr dream about it... ur fault :(
Haha...im sure it would make you feel much better.....

Cuz my daddy said so :)

When 24 hours in a day is not enough

When things in your life seem , almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class
And had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

A piece of good advise,
Dunno how true but no harm giving it a try !!!!!


If you should ever be forced by a robber to withdraw money from an ATM
machine, you can notify the police by entering your Pin # in reverse.

For example if your pin number is 1234 then you would put in 4321. The ATM
recognizes that your pin number is backwards from the ATM card you placed
in the machine.

The machine will still give you the money you requested, but unknown to the
robber, the police will be immediately dispatched to help you.
This information was recently broadcasted on TV and it states that it's
seldom used because people don't know it exists..
Please pass this along to everyone possible.


如果有一天你面对劫匪要你到提款机提款，记得不要反抗，照他的指示，不过当你按你的密码时要从后面按起，如123456，你就按654321，提款机会照样出钱，可是劫匪万万想不到警方会立刻获得通知来协助你。
这个系统很少人用所以都被人们遗忘了。。。。

请传给你关心的人。。。。。

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