Inspiring talk by Tony Christiansen

i rmb he said something about:

when we were young, we often goes to weddings and dinners..
but as we grow older, we will be attending funerals instead

One thing he learnt in a funeral procession is that when someone dies, all he left behind will be the date he was born, the date he died, and the tiny lil dash in between.
(eg. 1/1/1990-1/1/2020)

Its about how u make the dash longer or thicker that matters... in other words, how u make your life meaningful, and not go wondering about why or how u will die. Its human nature to live and die.. so let them do the job ;)

Do you know, that when we were young-at the age of 5- whenever a teacher asks question in class, we will rais up our hand and hoping to get the chance to just say something out loud, not bothering whether it is correct or wrong??
But this habbit soon changes as we grow older. We no longer are the spontaneous 'us' back then. Its because of the society and surroundings which affects us... Our way of thinking! Just try to think back.... How many 'No' have u been receiving throughout these times in your life?? People are being manipulated since young that they cannot do things alone or that they dream off, or even tries to do those things they want to do. So, as they grow old, they starts to believe and accept the fact that they really cant do.. accept words like: 'its impossible', 'kept dreaming' or 'never'.... negative thinkings. It is unfair for the society to treat us like that. We must not let them influence our way of thinking

I dont wanna bring up all the Wright Brothers, Thomas Edison success stories and things here. but my point is, everything start off as a dream. If u dare to dream, eventually u will accomplish something. Others say, dream dont come in just one night, it comes with hardwork and time.
To me -in achieving a goal- it is not a matter of time or hard work, but an unmeasurable will of doing and achieving it. Theres no formula or substances to bring u there. As long as u believe it! its possible!


Success comes when someone least expect them to.


The thing which inspired me was when the MC introduced him onto the stage.
In my mind, i was expecting some great dude, wearing suit, well groomed, super fluent English wit some British accent, american probably.. and with the Super success look in his face... from some grand company; Because the title of the talk was "Secrets of Success".. (No point for one who looks unsuccessful to give a success talk rite?)
But then, at that moment, i saw no one walking onto the stage, but there was a voice coming out from the microphone....
Then the man - Tony Christiansen, climbing up the stage with his bare hands..no feet.. no support.. and in the middle of the stage was a bench. He climbed on the bench, just so we could see him. He's not even in a suit or jacket, just a polo T and a pair of trousers with the hole sealed up, since he has no legs. And he starts his speech.
That moment i saw him, i knew this guy is not like the rest of the speakers. Respect!!

He lost his legs at the age of 9 when a train ran over it. I'm not really sure how, but it was a drastic accident.
Now... u know lah, if it were a sad story, he wont be here giving a speech. He turned out very successful in every angle of life, except for having a pair of feet :(
If we speaks about him, it will be a never ending speech. He has accomplished from opening own's company to flying a plain solo, climbing mountain with his bare hands, take part in national Olympic games representing his own country, weight lifting 120kg, car racing, sky diving and many more that we would dream of achieving.

He is a true Hero, thats all i can say.

I shall end here and be selfish for once, keep the remaining inspirational speech from Tony to myself. Do read up his books and probably Google him to find out more about him if u want to :)

Thurs - FIM assignment due date

i dont think i have enough time to update this blog tonight.
Tmr assignment deadline,
just here to remind myself NOT to do assignments LAST MINUTE in future.
time management & discipline~! !!
Arigatoo~~~

Hairy Potter - half blood prince

damn i hate that show. To those of you who hate it, pls spam on my blog comment!!! yeahhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck this movie weh, waste of time, money, and the WASTE of Natural Resources making this movie!!!!

wth.. let me tell u what happened, the begining was okay... alot of suspense~~~ then the romance and love thing, u know lah. and WTH, Emma WAtson with Ron?!?!!? its just not possible.... i'll have nightmares man!!!!! this story suck. i tot the hero suppose to get all da chicks... The Moral of the story is totaly wrong dude!!! Ron.. wth!!! that joker??? Rather pick me instead =________=

Then there was Dumb-dore, he drink that water to get the Hocrax part..... HAHAHAA that seriously was funny man!!!! u should see his face.... XD in the theater i even heard someone cried like as if it was THAT touching. The fucking water looks like Pepsi to me man... He should be smiling, drinking Pepsi, chilled, some more there's someone to feed you... WTH... if i were him id say ' Feed me MOre HARRY!!!! dont u drink that, its all mine u Bastard!!'

Then the part where they all were on the train to Hogwat. i tot, what happened?? Malfoy close all the windows i expected a Duel will take place in the train. Like those action movies, shoot here and there, den the windows burst and someone fly out of it.. something like that.... but No, it did not happen. Hairy kena wack by Malfoy on his innocent lil face... That inocent face.. like kena wack ady also dono what happened... LOL SRSLY Harry looks stupid weh!!!!! kena punch in d face like its nobodys business!! seriosuly laugh the crap out of me....
No offence to u Harry Potter fans out there, but this movie totaly suck to the Max! :)
(this only, the rest of Potter are still okay lahh... give u all some face lahhhh~~~)

but so far, the day was fun lah. get to know some new faces. i was quite amazed of myself, i can remember their names the first time i saw them. Okay, let me intro them lah: (if ur reading this, pls dont be mad lahh... im just joking :) its for Blog purpose only)

So, the DaiLou of the gang is christ- She is like the boss; when she says shut up, everyone shuts! including me :) dont mess with her, or u'll die like the rest. hahaha She.......... suppose to be the most talkative one there. But that day she nvr talk to me much, maybe its my sudden appearance that stunned her. i should have wear a mask lah =\
She, scary??? nahh... no offence lahh, ur stare is just too funny HAhaahaa XD

DEn comes her best friend, the Electric Generator, Claudia.. u should see her eyes lah! i kena shock damn many times ady. but shes quite shy, dont even think of her talking to you. i srsly dono how these 2 elements can come together.. shy and stunning eyes.... =____= BTW She's okay lah, dont talk bad bout her!!!!

then there is mei mei, i like calling her that ;P it just rhymes~~~ like, hey mei mei~~~ Hahaaa u know the song by souljaboy?? Hey BAe BAeh~~ something like that lah... Hahaha XD but shes okay lah, atleast she talks to me. Not like the rest of u... XP

Then its my, that day she bang her head i guess. Suddenly dl + emo.... i hope its not beacuse of me =\ She....... i also got nth much to say bout her. Big dbsk fans lah, thats all i can say :P

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Overal it was okay lah, im having fun. i guess they are as well.... HOPE SO... but then i realized something, i spend 50 bucks that day. IT was not even a DAy, it was like.... only 6 hours.... LOL... its like i kena robb or something. First there was the Tempanyaki- rm20. Then the movie ticket- rm9. Follow by the arcade and snacks- bout rm10. then when i came out of the parking, another rm8 WTH.... i should take the bus next time lah. A parking rm8 Damn, i rather treat everyone drinks than giving rm8 for nothing. and for your info, i wasted 40 mins for searching one DAmn parking.... kept going up and down and up and dow..... =___=
Anyway, its MV... nothing is cheap there. ;)


In the end....... it was okay lah, but i would rather prefer going redbox than WATCHING Hairy Potter =_________=

First Drive to Genting

Last friday (22 may 2009), my first time driving up to Genting. well, not the whole trip lah, i drove to Gotong Jaya and the rest my dad took over. Its not like i dont have skills or what, i am perfectly in control okay.

That time was at night when we drove up to Genting. The cool thing was i drove that car =) its my dads Unser, inside there was my bro,2 younger bro,mom, her sister, and my dad. U know how much pressure is on me when i am driving that car??? i kept thinking that what if i turn too much, will the car roll over, or what if suddenly my hands slipt and the stearing went out of control? then we will make headlines in the news next day. LoL

Well, so there i was, driving that bloody big unser. With loads of more than 200kg inside. The whole time i've been hearing sounds like 'hey watch out, there's a car coming' or 'pull the gear longer.. dont switch so fast' or even 'dont eat others lane when u dont have the skill'... wtf, i seriously cant take it man. its not like once or twice. every 1 minute u can hear that. Duhh.. i can see the cars coming okay.

*Btw, u know why we should pull the gear longer(manual cars only). Because if u switch the gear too early, your car will not have sufficient power to go up high slopes. and u know lah, genting slope damn steep. so its best to stay that gear, and when u hear the engine sound is getting sharper and sharper, let go some of that oil to make it 'calm' a lil. cool aeh?? i learnt that skill when i was driving up to Genting.*

Okay.... so we reach half way, stop at Gotong Jaya, my dad say thats enough for me for today. Hahaha... he just dont trust me thats all =\ so we stop at the 'tong sui' shop for some dessert, and then continue our journey.

Okay.. bla bla bla nth interesting. skip to the room part.when they gave us the room card key, we went up to the room and slot the card in. Push the door open,the next thing we found out that the door was locked... and its from the inside (the 'u' shape thing, not the shoot.) So we were screaming outside... and i, the 'smart' fella, go kick the door and there was a loud 'bang' sound. no one replied, so it was assumed to be empty. And yes, we did asked if anyone was in there through the fringe of the door. that time, there was 1 old uncle came out of his room behind us looking at us. wth is with him? we cant go in waadd.... =___=

So later on my dad,mom and her sis went down to complain bout the door, and we 4 brothers were starting to give deductions.(Detective Conan....) How the hell would this be happening?? if there was no one inside, and the door was locked from the iside, then that must be that the someone came out from the room through the window? thats super wierd... and did i mention it was 11 stories high, excluding the car park levels and the mountain slope below the carpark??? its like u can almost see nothing below from the window. And things start popping out from my mind, maybe cos i watch too much Detective Conan anime, that this could be a murder case and there's one dead body inside and we would be the witness to that crime sceen. Wtf.... seriously i was worried at that time, at the same time anxious and wanna know what is happening inside. First time mahhh, give some face lahh... hahaha

And so, the bellboy came up. At that time i wasnt there, i was in another room waiting. My bro told me he use some sort of cardboard, insert into the fringe where the door opens and then slams it. coool, y dint i think of that.... So i dont think this is the first time that guy handle this type of case. Then my dad, mom and her sis accompanied by the bellboy, went into the room.(kinda like break in to the room) It was dark and my dad switch on the lights.

Suddenly, one 'black' man came out and scared the hell out of that bell boy as he was leading the group. He immediately fall back 4 steps. lol after i heard that was laughing all the way... hahahaha XD

Then the man said that he had checked in to this room and its his. So basicly there was some mistake on the receptionist for giving us this room lah. after that my dad was onfire. cos we broke in to others room and what if he/she was doing something private... and this room, suppose to be ours, turned out that it wasnt ours. So they went down to complain again. This time they demanded to see the person incharge or some higher authority. The Front desk manager came out and say they will check into this matter and told us to wait for the news tmr.

So the next day we went to see the DM - Duty Manager of the Front Office, accompanied by the assistant front office manager. came to appologise. Lol u should hear how my dad speaks to him. My dad... a singaporean... english with limited vocab and those 'uncle style', jearking all the way, of speaking, plus a little of malaysian broken english.... Talk to the DM using all his own words and sentences. He manage to put up all the english letters he know together into one 'rojak' sentance and he speaks as if its damn correct and theres not a problem with it. Damn cool wehh...wish id taped it down. and he also remain calm and confident as he speaks. We were laughing behind him, and at that time we were thinking whether to help him out if he ran out of words to say.
Not bad, in the end, the problem was solved by the DM professionaly and we were told that we have a room upgrade when the next trip to genting.As expected, genting handle things with stylee~~ LoL.... xD


Awesome trip... but all the time was wasted arguing with the front desk manager. he seriously cannot handle such things professionaly. he could have just give us some free stuffs and settle it on the spot already, rather than calling his senior/head to come deal with it. Thats the lesson i learnt that day, to handle situations professionaly next time and not push to others. =)

Holssssssss

Huhuhu... i tot it would be very interesting and relaxing.
basicly nothing turned out as expected.
my plan during the holiday was :
1) find a part time job that would'nt crash wif my daily activities.
2) go gym evey single day after work. If possible, dont wanna drive :P
3) part time job will be able to cover my going-to-buy laptop.
4) catch movies and go lepak wif friends.
5) etc...

Haiiiiiiiiihhhhhh...... in d end....
i realize my hols is only 2 weeks++ not enugh time for work.
even so, my gym would be at 5~8 everyday. and i dont think theres time for it.
pluss, every morning have to fetch my bros to school. Which i have to wake up at 6 earLY in DA MORNing, fetch ThEm and ComE home to continuuuueeeee my peaaaceful sleep. which took about 30 to 40 mins for th trip. Come back, my sleep was no longer peaceful =___= Really pissed me off every single morning, when they call me to fetch them to school(with that loud and irritating voice. Cant they just give me 5 mroe damn minutes?? ). BTW, their school is not very farrr, its a walking distance and during my time i used to walk all the time. No big deall XP

Anyywayy... tmr im going to penang for my dad's friend's daughter's wedding XD i cant believe shes only 20years old. which is like 1 year older than me ONLY.. Well, i guess this is generation gap. And i thought i wanna get married at the age of 30 is too young =___=
My dad and him are good friends and we used to go those 4x4 trips and camps to wild places in the jungle, cave, places where orang asli's live and also 5 star hotels with all you can eat buffets ;)
Hahahaa.. those were the times. I remembe the best time was in 2004, we went to Thailand - golden triangle - and it took us 7 days to reach there. The 'going' was not fun, cos most of the time i was sleeping in d car(and was damn hot in d evening, it like rosting a duck in d oven), but the coming back was super fun. We made many stops at cities like Ching mai, Hat yai, pataya, blablabla... and We neverr once forget the NIght Market... Super duper Awesome XD you should try the fried grasshopper. Crunchy & Delecious!! The whole trip took us about 21 days. Its worth it, a good memorable lifetime experience... HAhaaa XD

So..... yeah her daughter was pretty, mom was lovely, dad was humorous, boy friend -soon to be husband- whom i never meet b4. I wish them all the best and may he and she live happily ever after. Btw, they nare just neighbours.. how bad could it be?
o.0 We shall see tomorrow. :P

The updates are coming on next week.... or maybe next next week.... or maybe next next next week.... or.....
ahhyaa, we shall see for that too... ahahAAHAhahhaaa XD

My study week

wwoooohhhh...
tiering...
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i've been studying damn hard
Hope the results come out also very Hard.. a Hard 'A' babyy~~~

Btw, i wanna say something before i end this weeks blogging.
while studying, im super duper confident that i known and memorized every single important part of the chapters. And am super duper confident that my quantitative tech 1, financial accounting framework 1, information system,management and english for business is going to get A. YEahhhhhhhhhh.......!!!

my aim is to get a first class degree when i graduate with a 3.8 ~ 4.0 CGPA
Dont laugh. you wait and seeeee B-)
okay, ciaoooooo~

Life is meaningless

Wow, i guess now im in one of those Emo days where i feel sad, meaningless, bored, hate god for every thing it has done, finding excuses to avoid some stuffs, hating everyone around me,i feel dieing...
i really dont know the true meaning of life
Will god tell me what It's supposed to be?
ive heard many said, that life is to be lived to the max.
and i have another question for this... In a happy way? or a painful way??
why people are suffering to live life to the max?
and why is suffering a living life to the max??
And does living life to the max in your eyes similar to what is in others?
how can they tell that we are actually happy, and livng our lives to our max?
The fuck they know what are we doing? How can they stereotype us of how we be?
Or life suppose to be living alone where the word 'others' will never come to existance?
So we can achieve our own goals and not recieving comments from others.

Have u ever ask yourself what are u doing right now?
Well, obviously reading this blog =___=
I mean, why are u doing so much?
like fore example, struggeling to earn money for living, study hard fr exams, training hard to achieve healthy body, chasing over partners which obviously ar'nt feeling you... Its like chasing over dreams...
So what do u want to achieve?
and what if u achieved ur results?
will things turn out better than what u expected?
will u be satisfied??
1 desire leads to another...
and in the end?? return everything to where it suppose to be.
Sometimes, your success isnt success to others. So basicly u are just doing shit all the time.


These days i've been thinking. why doing so much, wasting all these hard work and no one could see/realize/know that u've done something. Even if they do, All they can do is to give a simple compliment... Do all my hardwork (as in each time i do something, i put my life and the whole entire world on the line type of hard work) and pain (compare to cutting myself and watch it bleed to death type) worth just a simple compliment??
They dont know how much we people had been through to get this. This, to others may be a little, to us its more than the world itself! No one understands the pain we've been through. Only ourselves, know what it feels like. And in the end, whats the use of it when no one knows what u are doing, and at the same time when you are putting so much effort to see the results that supposingly others should be realising?

It is all bullshit... in the end, only u yourself known of what u have achieved. And all the time you are lying to yourself that u do it for others, to let others know that you can do. Or to prove something to others. Others will just critique all the way, and expect for more. Something happened or was supposed to be during the past, will not change the future in others eyes. Because they only look at what they want to look at, and what they believe that it was suppose to be. If they dont believe that it exist, they dont realize that it is there, and what is there is what u've achieved going through a hell of a hard time.

Before this, i thought i could change the point of view of others. To make others see me as a someone, as a man! But till now, its been 3 years, and i kept getting back the same words that was said to me back 3 years then... So, was the 3 years of mine wasted??? No one understands how much sufers i've been through. Even tho i've obtained results, but still getting back the same old words?! does this sound fair?
im feeling like shit right now... y not just put all these junks aside and do what im supposed to. Im sick and tired of doing what is right, and what is good for others and obviously not benefiting me...

Now i no longer believe in goals and dreams. its just for self satisfaction. No one else will ever realize and will truely understand what u've gone through to obtain it. They are basiclly fuckers.


That is life...
Still say live it to the fullest?
please... Die faster is the best to live life to the max.
Meaning of life is to create a perfect lie for yourself






im so happy that i wrote this, i bet after few months looking back at this i will laugh at myself... basicly 90% of it is bullshit, 9% are whinnings and 1% are my England... XD
Peace out~! \m/